Day 1
Nursed at 4 am
Tried to get baby to eat before leaving at 7:30, baby just fought it and cried
Riding with husband so mom can have my car, cried on way to work
Got to work, frantically moved stuff to new desk before old boss got to work
Said hi to people, answered “hows baby” and “do you miss him” 10,000 times
Put up pictures, tried not to cry at desk
Couldn’t call mom this morning, afraid of breaking down
Nervous about pumping, didn’t talk to woman about sharing closet until very uncomfortable
Closet turns out to be great pumping place, first pumping went well
Mom came at lunch with baby, nursed in CFA
Pumped again in the afternoon
Baby ate 12 oz today, have no idea if this is good amount or not
Husband picked me up
Nursed when I got home, yay!
Pumped before bed
Cried myself to sleep
Day 2
So tired from day before, didn’t hear baby crying at midnight until mom woke me up
Nursed baby on one side, went back to bed
Nursed baby at 4
Mom lectured about using white noise fan when we have baby, of course the first time we didn't hear the baby is while she was here
Cried on the way to work
Able to call mom this morning without crying
Today harder then yesterday, lots of moms do this and it turns out okay, right?
Pumping went well, brought book today
Mom came for lunch, got hamburgers, nursed baby in restaurant
Brought baby up to office, took him around to meet people
Pumped again, getting used to this
Rode home with husband, so tired
mom said baby only ate 7 oz, worried about how much baby ate
Watched movie, pumped, went to bed
Day 3
Fell asleep nursing at midnight, woke up 2 hrs later cold with shirt still pulled up
Nursed at 4, fell asleep with baby on side next to edge-not safe!
Baby fussed at 5 to nurse again on other side
Angry and sad as I wash pump parts & bottles, husband calls from the back of the house to see
what I am doing, want to snap at him but (almost) answer calmly
Drove to work in silence
Worried baby will prefer bottle over nursing, cried at desk
Talking to pregnant coworker, started crying
Pumped
Mom brought baby at lunch, sat in car in Kroger parking lot eating wendy’s, nursing baby
Pumped, had to wait for crowd to clear from in front of closet
Worst day so far
Husband picked me up, got take out Chinese
Almost silent car ride, started worrying about becoming emotionally distant from husband
Home, yay!
Baby nursed twice on each side and was happy and smiling and in a playful mood
So relieved baby is nursing well, tell myself I have a morbid imagination, feel friendly towards husband
Rock baby to sleep
Skipped bedtime pumping, I am pumping enough during the day and I am tired!
Day 4
Woke at 11-baby added back a feeding at night this week, glad for the extra nursing sad about lack of sleep!
Woke at 4 to nurse
5:30 accidentally turned off alarm
6:30 husband’s alarm went off
Played with baby and husband, baby happy and smiley, so hard to think of leaving
Only nursed on one side, trying to force baby to eat on other side before leaving for work
Didn’t cry on the way to work-an achievement!
Pumped 12 oz in the morning when baby only ate 5-so far no production issues!
Nursed one side at lunch
Realized didn’t have key to pumping closet, other girl with key gone for the day
Start having shooting pains on side baby didn’t eat on at lunch
Thinking frantically, worrying about clogged ducts and mastitis and losing supply
Asked b-i-l to borrow his car to “run an errand”
Pumped in bank parking lot for relief, so hot and uncomfortable in the car
Smelled cigarette on the way back in to work, really, really wanted one
Almost started crying when back at desk, this sucks!
Baby won’t nap for my mom, she mentions she hasn’t had a productive day-I don't feel very sorry for her
Checked in with mom, she said she spilled a bottle, crap! I work hard for that milk
Baby didn’t nap much today, can hear his whines and whimpers in the background, so hard, feel like whimpering myself
Can’t wait for husband to pick me up
Finally made it home, now baby is napping!
In pain, need to feed the baby! Nurse as soon as he wakes up
Ah, relief and cuddle time
Mom asks if I fed on left side, totally lopsided at this point
Baby didn’t nap much today, still stayed up til 9
Day 5
Baby slept until 3! Looks so big in his crib, a little sad
Friday, yay!! I made it
Feeling lopsided, try to feed baby before work on side he didn't finish at 3
Baby blows out diaper, already in work clothes
Stick a t-shirt under him, call for husband to rescue me
Double checked key to closet is in my purse, don’t want a repeat of yesterday!
Today was easier to leave, not sure if I am happy about that
Talked to mom, listened to complaints about house
Pumped-10 oz!
Talked to mom, baby drank 5 oz after nap
So tired and hungry, won’t get lunch until at least 1
Mom late for lunch, baby in the middle of his afternoon nap, didn’t wake up to nurse
Went shopping for baby clothes with mom
Mom bought several new outfits! Did NOT want to go back to work
Uncomfortable because last time I pumped was 9:30 and baby didn’t eat
Pumped 10 oz, worried about milk supply after two days in a row of pumping/nursing issues
Relieved I can nurse all weekend
So worn out and tired
Finally home and the first week is over!
Hoping that this week is the hardest
